Get me more Choglet

I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No, no, no.

I'm so tired, I don't know what to do
I'm so tired, my mind is set on you

Not.

You know what happened, don't you? The massive internal bleeding in the lower GI tract? We came back yesterday, and I hope, dearly hope she is getting better. I think I am losing my mind, my health. I am so overwhelmed, there is no method to my day today: I am just dealing with things as they come. My plans cover, I think, 30% of what needs to be done. 

My mother gave me no quarter in the second half of the day, and I was again close to tears. I want to work, I am very worried about work when I have time to think of it, but where's the time? Today I spent 2 hours intermittently, I think, trying to find my glasses within the house, until ma suggested I check the phone table, and there it was, one arm poking out, looking like a phone wire. So much groceries later, I rush in after finding and feeding a cat and decide to make the chicken stew myself. By then it was 8.30, and sugar checking (down to 115) and panicking about insulin and gyan from O later, I am totally disoriented with no plans, ranting on WhatsApp to M. Monsieur K calls and I am so tempted to give him a piece of my mind in language of my heartfelt choice but I instead talk in clipped tones in pretend how-do-I-care mode. 

Eventually I randomly match with two OK-ish dudes on Tinder, because, who actually cares, and then start swiping left mechanically because, why not. 

I am scared about not finding a full-time maid by the time this attendant goes in 6 days, and with my luck, I might not. There are the doctors to check up with, the surly cook will come tomorrow and make faces and cook horrible food, and the whole gamut of tomorrow will start and go on and on like Groundhog Day, except there's nothing to change but only to put on the best possible face and deal with it. 

What is this, what is happening? How does one change this, make it better, bring the situation under control? Please help, please help.