hnoo baba

In here and posting. Life's a topsy turvey. Met a German guy, stuck up, who spoke. He has one very ugly tooth and he laughs and laughs, something like Peter Wyman but not quite that. Met kid S's friend whom I liked. Some people you know are special. He is that, with beautiful hands, and calm face, in a way that S isn't. S is light, light as the world, forget, just to forget. The friend is quiet, he will reassure by just being. I wonder what one does to deserve these - these blessings, of knowing people so much better than you are. Aaj okhane bosheo mone hochhilo. And then, I saw his face today, grim but when he came to me, the biscuit, everything falls into place. I am a little animal. React thoughtlessly to comfort, kindness, assurance. It's a bit scary too, that this reaction is so instinctive, what about nurturing others?
Well, the nice thing about the day is, I have been out for the whole day, pushing myself more or less. I met up with pals, did my thing without worrying how tired I might get. I am tired, but rather happily so. Spoke to Oli yesternight for long hours, then went off to sleep. S woke me up, wailed ghumote dey and all, but went off nonetheless, glad to spend the three hours we did at T3, the weird food we ate, seeing S and friend, fixing appointment to teach S, other kid at 9 in the morning. And then next day shall begin. Is how life should be. And be married along the way and come back to a kid every night. Not baby. Kid.